my philosophy professor told us today that he wants us to take some time every day just to sit and reflect and just BE. i have some time before church, so i thought, hey, wouldn't it be great to allow my faithful readers to embark on this journey with me? i'm going to sit here for a few minutes with my jar of peanut putter and just reflect, and i'm going to type thoughts as they come. ready?

... mmm... peanut butter... creamy... sweet... satisfying... i wish i could eat a jar of peanut butter a day and not gain any weight... this moment was made just for me and peanut butter... i wonder why this "honey roasted nut" flavor only comes in creamy... they should make it in "super chunk" too... mmm... God must have created man, woman, and then peanut butter, because they wouldn't have survived long without it...mmmm

okay i'm done.

so i was thinking today about this site and about the kind of stuff that i put on it. everything thus far has really been written to entertain you and to entertain myself with quirky stuff that happens in my every day life. the question has arisen once or twice, "are you being real?" i guess meaning that since i haven't taken the time to expound upon more personal parts of my life and feelings, that maybe my stories are just a way of masking the stuff that really goes on. i just wanted to assure you, the reader, that no, i'm not hiding anything... my life is actually just as shallow as i make it sound.

haha no really. i actually have a rather melancholy disposition. not depressed or anything, but just... well... i tend to think A LOT. i generally like being alone with myself and my thoughts. but in super long doses it can be overwhelming, so finding humor in the mundane is very therapeutic for me. i love to laugh. i like to make other people laugh. i've just recently noticed that one of the components characteristic of all the good friendships that i have is that the other party thinks i'm funny. interesting, huh? i'm not really sure what that says about me, but i imagine that it's probably normal and okay. humor is a coping mechanism for me, but it's also just a way for me to enjoy life, by finding funny in the ordinary. so all this said, i'll probably be more "real" in the days to come, but just understand that these blogs are a way for me to write down all the weird stuff i think about that i think no one would ever want to listen to.

in the meantime, check out rozi's new page. he's joined the crew of all of us computer geeks who have nothing to do with their time. hilarious. great mother freaking dane.