enter angel.
before i tell you this story, you have to promise not to freak out on me, because i'm not telling you this first story for any other reason than to preface the next story. no freaking out.
a little over a month ago i went to lisa's monday night Bible study for the first time in months because i REALLY wanted to see lisa, the beautiful. when i got there (late and a little flustered), i discovered a few new people. one of them being a guy, whom i found interesting. mostly because he was strikingly like ara in look and mannerisms, and he loves the Lord. we kind of hit it off. i drove home that night talking to the Lord about it. the thing is, i don't want another dead-end relationship. it's really such a time and heart waster, i feel... and i'm finally at the point where i'd rather be single and enjoy this part of my life with Jesus than be in a relationship simply because i could be. so i was really cautious about it, but i kind of liked him.
so i kept coming to the bible study. because i enjoyed it, i loved seeing lisa, and i figured it would be a safe place to get to know this guy a little better. truth be known, though, if i were not curious about him, i probably would have made plans to see lisa at other times, because Bible study runs a little late on monday nights, and i usually have to work early tuesday mornings.
about two weeks after i went the first time, i had a dream that i felt was from the Lord. it was kind of cryptic and would be hard to explain so i won't go into detail, but i basically just felt like the Lord was telling me to let this one (relationship) sleep.
"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you... do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." ~ Song of Songs 2:7
so, contrary to my historical way of doing things, i listened to Him, or what i thought to be Him. and i kept going to the Bible study, but i really put it in the Lord's hands. my two weeks on vacation at home and in kansas city seemed to pretty much settle any giddyness that i had from meeting someone new. when i returned from vacation, i was planning on coming one more monday, mostly because i just really enjoyed going, but also to kind of test my heart on this matter-- to make sure that i had really let it go. but after that Monday i would be starting work again on Monday evenings and probably wouldn't make it anymore.
and it was good... kind of neat actually... he and i never talked about anything... i mean, we barely know each other... but i could kind of sense that monday that i came back that he was keeping a little bit more of a distance from me. not in a rude way or anything-- but it was almost like the Lord had spoken to him about me too, and out of reverence for Him we were both keeping a safe distance. i don't know if that really happened or if the distance was intentional on his part or not, but it was just the impression that i got.
i've told you this story because i think it interesting (and funny) how the Lord got me to keep coming to monday night bible study so that i would meet bethany. He used an angel. literally. the guy's name is Angel.
i didn't really tell anyone except for lisa about it because it really wasn't a Big Deal. and to guard my heart. sometimes the more you talk about something, the more it becomes a bigger issue than what it really is.
i will tell you about Bethany in the next post.
before i tell you this story, you have to promise not to freak out on me, because i'm not telling you this first story for any other reason than to preface the next story. no freaking out.
a little over a month ago i went to lisa's monday night Bible study for the first time in months because i REALLY wanted to see lisa, the beautiful. when i got there (late and a little flustered), i discovered a few new people. one of them being a guy, whom i found interesting. mostly because he was strikingly like ara in look and mannerisms, and he loves the Lord. we kind of hit it off. i drove home that night talking to the Lord about it. the thing is, i don't want another dead-end relationship. it's really such a time and heart waster, i feel... and i'm finally at the point where i'd rather be single and enjoy this part of my life with Jesus than be in a relationship simply because i could be. so i was really cautious about it, but i kind of liked him.
so i kept coming to the bible study. because i enjoyed it, i loved seeing lisa, and i figured it would be a safe place to get to know this guy a little better. truth be known, though, if i were not curious about him, i probably would have made plans to see lisa at other times, because Bible study runs a little late on monday nights, and i usually have to work early tuesday mornings.
about two weeks after i went the first time, i had a dream that i felt was from the Lord. it was kind of cryptic and would be hard to explain so i won't go into detail, but i basically just felt like the Lord was telling me to let this one (relationship) sleep.
"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you... do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." ~ Song of Songs 2:7
so, contrary to my historical way of doing things, i listened to Him, or what i thought to be Him. and i kept going to the Bible study, but i really put it in the Lord's hands. my two weeks on vacation at home and in kansas city seemed to pretty much settle any giddyness that i had from meeting someone new. when i returned from vacation, i was planning on coming one more monday, mostly because i just really enjoyed going, but also to kind of test my heart on this matter-- to make sure that i had really let it go. but after that Monday i would be starting work again on Monday evenings and probably wouldn't make it anymore.
and it was good... kind of neat actually... he and i never talked about anything... i mean, we barely know each other... but i could kind of sense that monday that i came back that he was keeping a little bit more of a distance from me. not in a rude way or anything-- but it was almost like the Lord had spoken to him about me too, and out of reverence for Him we were both keeping a safe distance. i don't know if that really happened or if the distance was intentional on his part or not, but it was just the impression that i got.
i've told you this story because i think it interesting (and funny) how the Lord got me to keep coming to monday night bible study so that i would meet bethany. He used an angel. literally. the guy's name is Angel.
i didn't really tell anyone except for lisa about it because it really wasn't a Big Deal. and to guard my heart. sometimes the more you talk about something, the more it becomes a bigger issue than what it really is.
i will tell you about Bethany in the next post.
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