break from church history.

phew. my brain almost wanted to explode. good thing i stopped when i did. finals are rapidly approaching. that means 4 days left of school for me. well, three. i don't have any tests tomorrow. which is nice. it's kind of weird. some of my fellow students that i most love are graduating this year. jake, bianca, linda & josh, etc. they're all going to be gone next year. GONE. i know they are ready to graduate and move on with their lives, but... it's sad.

i've got to leave in about 10 minutes to go hang out with helen at starbucks for awhile, but the question i keep getting from everyone is what's up with ara, so here is an answer. ara is great. freaking wonderful. keeps getting better and better. just an all around beautiful person. the more i get to know him the less concerned i am about liking him so much, because i'm pretty sure that who he is in my head is the same as who he is for real. so far it just seems like we bring out the best in each other. which is fantastic. i'm glad i'm leaving for the summer though. i do want to be alone for these next months and just sort through some things, and i appreciate so much that he's putting zero pressure on me about that. i see that he is scared that i won't come back, but he just tells me to do what i need to do.

there are a dozen roses in a vase on the dining room table reminding me that someone who cares very much will be waiting for me to make my way back to chicago.