seasons change.

it's so strange how quickly You can change something. i mean, i guess it shouldn't be weird. in an instant You died, in an instant You rose again. in an instant You healed countless people. in an instant i went from being a sinner to being a lover of You. i guess the way You generally work is in moments where things tend to change all at once. sometimes it takes a long time to get to that moment. much waiting, patience, prayer, perseverance... but when the moment comes, things change overnight. maybe not all the time, but that seems to be the case more often than not in scripture, no?

so i guess it shouldn't surprise me so much that this has all changed so quickly. i need not really be alarmed at the speed with which it has changed, so long as my love is fastened upon You. Your Spirit guides me into truth... how i love this! because You love me and because i love You so, You will not let me stray far from the narrow road before nudging me back to it. the funny thing is, almost overnight, i feel like he is maybe part of my narrow road. he is not compromise, he is not a mistake. it seems like he may be part of this story after all... this story of You making me holy and fashioning a deeper love in my heart for You. and it seems like i am a part of his.

it's so strange how good this feels. pure. noble. lovely. beautiful. there is no hint of darkness in it. no deceit, no unrepented sin, no lust. it is a GOOD thing. how many things have i been able to say that about in my life?

so, this weekend i gather with 100,000+ other lovers of You to repent for this nation's idolatry and sin, and to declare that i, WE, want to marry You, Jesus. the Bride is making herself ready (Revelation 19:7). it's going to be an intense weekend. maybe even a turning point in history. who knows what You will do? Jesus, I plead Your blood over my sins and the sins of my nation. God, end abortion and send revival to America.

good night. i'll update soon.