so SOMEONE, whose name shall remain nameless, thinks i should be abacinated for using a quote at the beginning of my story yesterday. In case you are too lazy to visit the link i have so lovingly provided for you, i will supply your curious mind with the definition to this word. to abacinate means "to blind by holding hot metal before the eyes as in torture." how ironic that he should use this word, seeing as how the quote has much to do with the sense of sight. i imagine that was the basis of its appeal. in any case, it's comforting to know that i have loyal fans such as these who are dedicated to my success in living a thoughtful and meaningful life. you can go suck an egg.

and a word about the infants not eating honey. props to helen's mom for supplying the answer to my question. apparently there is a fungus in honey that the infant's immune system is not developed enough to handle. thanks mrs. johnson, you're the best!

today work was great. fantastic. couldn't have been better. i want you to know that i really enjoy working at starbucks. there is just something about the store i work in, the partners i work with, the customers that come in. we had such a great time tonight. working hard but being crazy. and it's so cozy when we've got sinatra playing. i have no inhibitions about dancing with the mop when sinatra is playing. one of the starbucks regulars that i'm friends with came in tonight to hang out and before he left he grabbed my face and i was seriously scared for a split second that he was going to kiss me. and i was thinking nooooooo this isn't what i want my return from kissing retirement to be like! but he was just being silly and pinched my cheeks like you do to a kid when you remark at how much they've grown. and everything was ok. but i was thinking about it later. say he did kiss me. if i don't return it, does it count? can i no longer say that it's been 4 years since i've kissed anyone? because it's not that i'm really proud of this-- it really just makes for a good joke more than anything else... i mean in hindsight i'm really glad it turned out this way for a plethera of reasons, but more than this it's just that a non-consentual kiss to me is like being a vegetarian eating veggie burgers and then finding out that the "veggie" burgers were really beef all along. that would suck. just to not have control over something i should be able to have control over. know what i mean?

there are a ton of people that i really miss today. usually i don't think about it much, but today is a missing day. kim stamp is one of them. i've been thinking about her every day for like the past two weeks. all the way in washington. matty and dave too. i may have to frequent wisconsin more often. i miss mom too. i was just thinking how much fun it was when she was in chicago. i miss my bro-- i bet he's officially taller than me now. sooo sad. and dad. it makes me smile big when he laughs at my jokes. i miss helen. we just saw each other a couple days ago, but in general i just miss her. and i'm not sad about missing all of these people; actually i like feeling so much in regards to my relationships with them. i think it's a good thing.